LifE

maybe If I go away I can figure out
what my life's supposed to be and what it's all about

maybe if I go away I can finally tell
what it is that I can't do and what I can do well

maybe if I go away I can break the mold
of what I've seen and what I've done and all that I've been told

maybe if I go away I can then be sure
of what I want less of and what of I want more

maybe if I go away I can understand
what I should let go of and what I should demand

maybe if I go away I can learn to be
fine with being me, when me is half of we

maybe if I go away I can leave behind
the life that I have here and explore another kind

maybe if I go away I can seek what's true
but just for me and not for him and not for her or you

maybe if I go away I can find a way
to express myself each day and say what I want to say

maybe if I go away I can soon unhack
a way to make 'going away' a way of coming back

a girL's smiLes

This girl she's crying inside

But everyone see is smiles

This girl she's hurting inside

She lived like this for quite a while

Always hiding her pain inside

She won't ruin everyone's smile

This girl she's breaking down inside

But all she does is smile...

Through those eyes deep inside

Holds a lot of misery

Playing pictures from her mind

Showing her past, her history

She doesn't want to remember

But the pictures continues to play...

Every night she prays

Wishing them away

But this girl lies with her laugh

And hides behind her smile

So no one can see her pain,

Her past, her denials

This girl she's dying inside

Although no one may see her pain,

Just continues to smile bright

From day to everyday

This girl whom I love so deep

Cries behind her eyes

But everyone ever see

Is blinded with a lie...

With her beautiful smile she gives

For everyone to see

Anyone and everyone

Anyone but me.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,

who calls you back when you hang up on him,

who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,

or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,

who holds your hand in front of his friends,

who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU...

The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

.:my LovE:.

Your love is what keeps me going.

My heart beating, my blood flowing.

The precious words I yearn to hear.

Losing you is the only thing I fear.

I have faith god will do us right.

We will not give up with out a fight.

Together we can conquer it all.

Just keep your head up and stand tall.

So many others care so deeply for you.

Don't get discouraged, you know what to do.

Pray to God and keep love inside.

You can't lose your almighty pride.

Because i love you with all of me.

With out you I just can't be.

You're in my heart forever, were never apart.

Our souls were latched from the start.

i knOw..

I do not know you well, but what I know

Enchants me, like a song sung far away.

I cannot hear the words, but what they say

Hangs softly on the hills where I must go.

I see you furtively and note your eyes,

Hazel and dreamy, your spirit half elsewhere;

I note the sheen of your dark, lustrous hair

And wish I knew your thoughts and shared your cries.

This love brings me sweet pain, but I want more,

Driven by a dream I can't control.

I want the truth of you, untamed and whole;

In frantic hope I haunt your open door

fiRst cruSh

A teenage girl's first crush is . . . well, crushing.
Her body isn't hers, nor is her mind.
She finds herself shivering, shaking, blushing,
Weak, tormented, sick, and going blind.
And why?

Because some guy might look her way,
Then cast his eyes as quickly to the ground;
Some special one, for reasons she can't say,
Whose voice makes her feel faint when he's around.
But now my crush on you has been returned,
And so the two of us stand on some brink:
It can't be love so young, and yet we've learned
Love does its will, no matter what we think.
Slowly, slowly now we must not rush:
Let's enjoy this first sweet teenage crush.