Monday, February 21, 2011


What is this feeling I have?
I seem to love you
But other times I seem to loathe you
I can't be without you
Or maybe just without anyone
I think about you all the time
But why do I have this feeling?
I waited long for your voice
And I would die to hear your laugh
But is this love
Or merely I'm scared to be alone?

My knees start to shake,
When you’re in sight.
My mind is filled with wonder,
My heart with fright.

When will this feeling stop?
When did it start?
How can I listen to my mind,
Without breaking my heart?

I’m so confused.
What should I do?
I can’t think of anything except you.

Should I ignore you,
Or just give it time?
I can’t think straight,
My heart controls my mind.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

.::it'S jusT a drEam::.

I dreamed of a love
a love so true
and then from above
God sent you
When our eyes met
I turned away
Only to regret
That grateful day

I search in the dark
To find that key
That triggers the spark
You put in me

I want you to see
That my love is true
Even though we can't be
I still hold my true love for you.
Sitting in the dark tonight
Alone in my corner of the world
I can't see the light
I want to be your girl

Or do I? I don't know...
I really have no clue
I feel like I have no where to go
Because I'm so in love with you

Miles separate us
And so I thought I didn't have to yearn
I thought I could escape the lust
God, I have so much to learn

I've been living a lie
I wish I was yours, still
I pretended I haven't wished that, by and by
But in my heart I know I always will

I can't come out and tell
How I dream about you every night
My life seems like a living hell
Because without you it isn't right

I want to just call you mine
And let you hold me close
But I've got to give this time
I want your love the most

You seem so angry sometimes
And I wish I could kiss it away
But to my morals that would be a crime
Yet I wish it every day

It seems like you are so distant
I want to tell you how I feel
But it's impossible, I can't
You wouldn't take me for real

So I sit here in the dark
Quiet but screaming inside
On my heart you've left your mark
My heart backs down to my pride

Someday I'll let you know
That I hold this secret within
But now I'll let our friendship grow
Then with that we can begin

Tonight I'll simply dream
That you are mine to be
I'll smile at us as a team
Then wake to reality

Where nothing is going well
Where I'm lonely without you
I caught you when you fell
Now I fall... what do you do?


She is lonely
Even though you can't tell
She is reaching out
For what, she doesn't know
She will continue to sit in silence
And hope that someone may stumble across
Her and all of her emptiness
But they only hope that they do it in time
Otherwise she will have drifted too far
And she may let go
Of whatever grasp of the world she has
As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone
Nearly unnoticed.