LifE

maybe If I go away I can figure out
what my life's supposed to be and what it's all about

maybe if I go away I can finally tell
what it is that I can't do and what I can do well

maybe if I go away I can break the mold
of what I've seen and what I've done and all that I've been told

maybe if I go away I can then be sure
of what I want less of and what of I want more

maybe if I go away I can understand
what I should let go of and what I should demand

maybe if I go away I can learn to be
fine with being me, when me is half of we

maybe if I go away I can leave behind
the life that I have here and explore another kind

maybe if I go away I can seek what's true
but just for me and not for him and not for her or you

maybe if I go away I can find a way
to express myself each day and say what I want to say

maybe if I go away I can soon unhack
a way to make 'going away' a way of coming back

a girL's smiLes

This girl she's crying inside

But everyone see is smiles

This girl she's hurting inside

She lived like this for quite a while

Always hiding her pain inside

She won't ruin everyone's smile

This girl she's breaking down inside

But all she does is smile...

Through those eyes deep inside

Holds a lot of misery

Playing pictures from her mind

Showing her past, her history

She doesn't want to remember

But the pictures continues to play...

Every night she prays

Wishing them away

But this girl lies with her laugh

And hides behind her smile

So no one can see her pain,

Her past, her denials

This girl she's dying inside

Although no one may see her pain,

Just continues to smile bright

From day to everyday

This girl whom I love so deep

Cries behind her eyes

But everyone ever see

Is blinded with a lie...

With her beautiful smile she gives

For everyone to see

Anyone and everyone

Anyone but me.